My birthday is always a time for me when I to take stock of my life. Is it going in the direction I want it to? am I happy? am I doing what I want? who am I spending time with? and so forth.
We are only on this planet for a limited period of time, and then who knows what happens. I really believe that one should be aware and present when being here and to make ones life the happiest and most enjoyable experience that one can in relation to ones own heart and soul. At least that’s my philosophy on life. Which has seen me move countries, travel and explore life perhaps a bit outside what is considered the norm in this current society/western world.
My aim is to live a life that feels right to me. That I’m proud over and that makes me happy and feel exited when I get up in the morning and fulfilled when I go to bed at night.
For me that is a life where I get to explore new knowledge, countries, view the stars from the other side of the planet and putting my own perspective up side down.
I want to satisfy my curiosity and to push boundaries, both when it comes to my own beliefs and opinions about life, thoughts and yes everything but also in my field of work. As the field I work within always change, evolve and is directly correlated with peoples imagination and the strength of it. For me, one of life’s luxuries, is the opportunities presented for learning something new. However painful it may be sometimes.
Living a simple life in terms of belongings is also something that have evolved with time and with this constant life of moving around which somehow seem to be related to not owning ones flat or house. But also the more I shed from what I thought was belongings so essential for me to thrive and exist (like my favourite DVD’s, CD’s, even books and my own sketchpads) the more free I feel.
I’ve often made long trips and “lived out of” my suitcase, and those have been some of the best times in my life. I don’t need much more then a book to draw in, a computer to capture my thoughts and creativity, a camera and a couple of rad outfits and I’m perfectly happy wherever I may be.
As long as I get to nurture and express my creativity, in whatever field it may be or form in may take, I’m extremely happy.
But this magical planet that we live on, so beautiful and perfect would be nothing without the people I know or the animals who inhabit this place we call earth. Spending time with people I love, and who nurture me with their sheer presence and energy and whom inspire me, also makes my life experience complete. I’m extremely grateful for my friends which I’ve gathered from all walks of life and who are very different but in a way – means they complete me and push me lovingly towards personal growth. Through the years I’ve added to my family in the shape of the friends I’ve met and made throughout my life. They’ve always been there for me when I needed support, a lesson or as inspiration when I’ve been perhaps in a darker place myself. I’ve seen their lives blossom and it has kept me going when I really needed it.
Which takes my to my next point, the choices I make. I always believe I have a choice. It’s just how conscious and present I may be in a situation, that sometimes I forget. Bit I do have a choice. And for me that means I don’t want to hurt anyone or the beautiful planet we live on. I’m so happy that I can decorate my flat with beautiful furniture and build a home, not needing to go to a store to buy new things and contribute towards our planets decay. But the most important choice of all for me, that I’m actually grateful for have made on a regularly, is not eating meat and not participating in hurting others because the lack of communication or understanding of other species. I strongly believe I will never waiver from this path, as I in a year will celebrate 20 years without eating meat.
That takes strength from within to walk a path unknown, stand up and be different and to follow my dreams. When everyone else around you is doing something different. It’s not easy, as what in this society is done in large groups of people are in many cases considered normal and accepted in this world. That scares me. Since that type of thinking as created concentration camps, racism, female inequality and so on. Just because everyone else is doing something – doses not make it right.
The last thought on this long philosophical post is that I don’t believe in wasting time. Again this also has something to do with being strong, empowered and brave when a situation requires it, although that not necessary how I feel or view myself. Having the strength to know ones worth and not stay in negative or even abusive situations, which can be in the form or people, circumstances or in even some cases even work. To choose happiness and what makes me feel good and happy. I carefully craft, hone and build my life, it’s taken a long time to get to certain insights and the sometimes hard lessons, have been learned – and that’s not for nothing. I will never compromise my life and conform to something that does not feel right or nurture my experience of life or wellbeing. That’s a promise I’ve made to myself.
Because at the end of the day – what is really important to me?
That’s my core question. Guiding me through life and something I’ve thought long and hard on up to this very day, because I value my life, my experience which I was gifted with at exactly 10.00 AM 32 years ago, today.
This post is illustrated with #truthbombs made by Danielle La Porte. I’ve borrowed them from her instagram account and I added her words to this post because they seemed so fitting to my text. ~You should check her out, she is fierce.